Life IS a Series of Deaths

 

“He that findeth his life shall lose it:

and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.”

~ Mathew 10:30, KJV

Life in the last six months has been a process of elimination and a series of deaths, which is not just a very difficult process, but a necessary one. It is where one becomes really and absolutely serious about living the true life with every intention to wake up on a daily basis from the sleep induced belief systems and habits that have become ingrained in the psyche. 

It means "loss" of everything that one has considered to be very important to one's life in the present time.  It is not just about loosing people, but more about coming face to face with one's own karmic nature. It is a big step which everyone has to take eventually, but prayer for courage to do this helps miles along the way. 

Though I have been on this path for a long time now, I was still unable to let go some serious stuff I needed to let go. I continued to be afraid to make a clean break, so a lot of the stuff kept repeating themselves and many people with similar energies that dominated my life so far, kept popping up keeping me in that familiar old loop. One end of the pendulam was "happy" mode and by the time the pendulam swung to the other side, it would turn to a "regretful" one. Though it was always invariably creating a tussel in my mind, I kept hanging on to the pendulam!

The process for change is very different and unique for every individual. Some wake up instantly after a very bad experience, and some just hang on with one leg in this world, and one in the spirit world, hoping that the things that one does'nt want will disappear just by virtue of hanging on. Unfortunately, nothing about life happens that way. Just because somebody says "wake up" you don't always do.  If you're hauled out of deep sleep unceremoniously, you really get into a bad mood. The timeline for waking up is different for everyone because there is purpose in that too. I was stuck in mine in parts.  I came to my senses about many illusions in my life over the years, but there remained some grey areas which just continued to stay fuzzy. Until one understands and accepts the Gift that comes with every unfortunate experience, one is unable to break that particular cycle. It is important to understand this because waking up is dependent on KNOWING and UNDERSTANDING the universal law of ONENESS as a True Reality. 

In the middle of all of this life drama, I met Reena Sen who is a Spiritual Teacher, Counsellor, Guide and Akashic Reader. Akashic Reading is her gift. When I consulted her, I was in for a surprise.  I am someone who has never been sure of such stuff.  I always thought they were mind stuff, but after my experience with Reena, I had to rethink all of my views on such gifts that some people have.  Reena is a facebook friend. She didnt know me personally.  All of my facebook posts are only a sharing of my own spiritual journey. So, whatever she shared with me about me, through her inner visuals, messages and guidance about certain people (dead and alive) in my life just resonated with me so much and made perfect sense.  She encouraged me to move forward without any doubt and fear. I am already healed and restored. I have to KNOW this from the very depths of my life.  What a relief! All the burdens just slipped off my shoulders, and I was genuinely Soul-Happy for the first time in this life time.  That is big, very big indeed for me. I am grateful for her help and I am so glad she came into my life one year ago! 

Since then, my life just suddenly turned a whole 360 degrees! I call her my Divine Intervention because the deep karmic personal blocks I could'nt get through, she brought to my attention and they all became clear to me. At last, I could take that step I so badly needed to take forward amd keep in rhythm with Life's natural flow and ebb. When one is out of step with Life, it is extremely painful. Everything hurts.

I got awoken to this: Life is a series of deaths.  One has to die everyday to all that was yesterday in order to experience new life TODAY. New Life comes with a clean slate. There has to be no trace of judgments in any form (self and/or another), no resentments, no anger, no fear, no anything that in any way holds hatred against another. All habits are difficult to eradicate but when one sets an intention for change backed up with prayer, there is nothing that cannot break down and change form. Trust Jesus when He says:

“…. if ye shall say unto this mountain,

Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea;

it shall be done."

~ Jesus ~

When something starts bothering me now about my life, my self inquiry mode kicks in, but this time, I am operating from a different consciousness, and it is this: Everything about the movement in my life in this world is temporary. The only thing that is permanent is The Spirit Within. From this still point my life is happening and as long as I let my view of the world hang loosely on this form like a garment that can be slipped out of any time without fear, I am fine. Infact, I am super-fine! The cycle of suffering stops. No matter how serious a matter, IT WILL PASS. It will pass because that is the nature and the Law of Spirit and of Life. Acceptance and Surrender are the KEYS. Practically everyone knows this, but few deeply understand what this means.  To "Accept" means to process every inch of the experience with an open heart. Much like my weight. I suffered every time I saw my excess kilos loaded up over the last few years. Nothing worked much to relieve me of this excess until I accepted myself lock, stock and barrel with an open heart. With this surrender came a love and respect for my body as a vessel, I never really had.  As I started relating to it personally, I began to stop feeling ashamed about my extra pounds and felt motivated to heal my mind from a place of inspiration.  I feel a million times better for it. I am grateful for this shift. 

And that is how I gained a deeper understanding of my very own personal issues.  We cannot figure out everything ourselves. But prayer leads us to the right places, and brings to us the right people. Everything is always in Divine Order and happens when it has to happen.  Life happens on purpose and for a purpose. I am celebrating this beautiful experience with a challenge I call "108 DAYS WITH GOD".  I wish to delve deeper in the God experience and see where this takes me.  What fun!! :)))

With Love, Lavina Olive xo

*Reena Sen is available here: http://akashikrecords.com/home/